Biggest Upset on Earth

On 12 May 1988 ,14:23 Hours God did a worst ever mistake of the world since it existence by giving birth to me and keeping me alive and still born as my brother. I Don t deserve to breath my life and wish god that I do not want to live for more because iam selfish,arrogant,Kutta,Harami,Kamina,chakha(called by aastha)bustard,useless,demanding,unsatisfying,not good for nothing creature in this earth. Today on 11 January 2011 around 23:00 Hours I have realized that fact.

I have been trouble to my dad,mom and my siz from the time of my birth,And it seems that” I am not adjusting towards them and I am selfish and do not have any consideration toward others” as my dad says. Now I Take a resolution though I know that it is really difficult for me and from now I would not ask anything from dad which is quiet difficult but I will try best excluding dailylife neccasities and I wish god that I spent all my money on myself and want to die/get out of this world as soon as possible and not be burden on other but I promise I want commit sucide because that cowards do not brave due to the only fact that :”Mainain maut ko chuna hai aur maut na mujhe nahin”

If I could born still born or been not alive earliar the condition would have beeen much better and my family could have lived happily for ever.Iwant to Die.

At The New Decade Of 2K10

Ithought my new year and of decade will be failure,dull,lazy bt hats off to gaurav,umi,manya,Neeraj uncle and family that they made it very special and happy ending to the decade BY Gaurav and Umi joined me to West cross mall and Planning to go to icebar pub where I could not but to very unexplained teenage places(jst nxt 2 Disc and playing stations)and two nights earliar Brahmas uncle called 4 dinner which I think that goood foood in that cuisne no one else can make better than soma babhi and Usha,Rao Aunty.

In the evening Brhmas Neeraj uncle and Family,Manya,Mom and I went to INS VARUNA 4 a bash where we had drinks,dances,posed pics in funny poses,had lots of street foood and most importantly I met my old friends from school and childhood..

Mumbai Trip 2January To 9 January 2011

From the sandwiches 2 D:)Sevpuri and Pav Bhaji'in the catogary of street 2 the mix up food[self mixed inbowl] in Oister Fry N Restraunts Bt no In can beat Bua's Dal Bhati and Sev Puri

Mumbai was like heaven nt bcz R Flat was nxt 2 Ambani's bt due the fact
++tht winds blew across the jst few meters away from house
And had a wonderful tme with everyone in the house and how nice I felt,i could nt 1/8 of that nice time in house of Delhi....

Roaming In praumanat ,colaba streets,gateway of India,Around Taj mahal hotel and doing shoping in satyam,oxforfd (where I found book on pirates and thr life)was a gr8t funtime wth exercise in wch I experienced how do the Locals interact Wth Tourist.Besides that though hangover was nt that good but playing X box was challenging.

Not only that over their I became a spoilt bratt because I observed that mumbai girls are morechick/hot and sexiar and are better compatable for me after interacting to them and observing them different location.now I have decided my nxt and first will be from Mumbai/Banglore....
First I felt after looking that chick was Urvana is not of my type in Oister Fry.

Iam In love with mumbai because...........

"Mumbai ki Baarish aur hawaa bahoot chanchal hoti hai joh bahooton ke armaan lekar aati aur samudrah apne saath le jaati hai Aur Samudrah ki lehrein apne beethar un armaan ko simath leti hai......!"

In The Lst 1/4 Decade

It was in the late 2007 i  felt in the love with Urvana and is still N Love or not Bt consider 2 be a very goood Friend of mine."I Thnk so she mst be aware tht i use to like her by showing concern affection 2wrds hr" bt since i hv changed my attitude 2wrds hr and she often ask me why iam  acting in different manner

Though Aastha says she is clever,dominating and sisy nt to forget.I'am trying 2 dt bt is really tough,i dnt knw in 4tre it will be sucess or nt.Bt dt is sure in present she jst a frnd.

Thr another problem regarding hr is dt whenever she's wth me i thnk sisy,and do not walk bt want 2 make ensure dt she'z fne bt whn iam away i wnt 2 talk 2 hr and whn we talk "i thnk it jst a waste of tme"

bt away 4rm her i need to talk 2 her.I DN'T Understand wht is ths Love/Inflactuati
on or smething else....... 

Well today And since last 50 days or so,she is bieng acting funny and I think she is engaged with Manish and maintain a r/ship of just a friend with me.Now we dont meet  that often,niether speek and we just chat through sms just once in a week and I Feeeel much better